Life.

Life is an incredible thing. Yet with all these horrors of the world fed to us daily by media and the worried feeds reflecting and affecting our minds it's easy to forget the many wonders of the world. For everything bad I believe there is an equivalent opposite wave of fortunate events, of good will, of magic moments... and the vast opportunities provided to us by life to have your breath taken away by that which is truly genuine.
Today was an awakening day in that sense. I was shown something horrifying and then something marvellous came to me. That reminded me that our power to create exceeds the limits we could ever manage to make up. We cannot fully fathom despite our advanced tools, our science or our philosophy. The beauty of it all is too complex. Today was the day I realised a few more of the many dimensions of happiness, this colourful spectre. The rain did it's best to wash this smile off my face in vain. All this energy... I must make something of it! Tonight I will make my grand first test of the 3D software Maya.

As pieces fall together new spaces seem to appear in this beautiful puzzle of life. It will keep challenging, keep growing and forever tend to link humanity together in the strangest ways.

Monkey mind - mindfulness refill, please!

Worn out. Got up early and did a few yoga moves. Then tried to invent a bicycle meditation on the way to work. The attitude was there, the physical energy too, but the mind adrift as it tends to do when one is mentally exhausted. If there's a parallell universe I was surely there today. In this universe everything was going right and in the real one where everyone else seemed to be... not so much. Some days are like that, especially for us dreamers with the imagination intense enough to be confused with reality. This makes it easier to fall back into old patterns like the clumsy, monkey minded girl whose thoughts are "jumping from tree to tree with no destination"... It's like this too with unwanted thoughts while meditating. They're usually only distractions without any deeper meaning. Echoes of another time. Sometimes we fall back into old ways of thinking, one doesn't simply change habits over a night.
It takes practise. Stay calm.
Forgive yourself. You are still learning.

You need focus for meditation. The mind goes elswhere? Take note, but don't take it in. Let go. Bring yourself back to the moment. Welcome yourself and be happy that you noticed and returned back into your body. Be patient. Determined. Repeat it as long as it takes. After a while the mind will learn its place is here with you. The present moment. I imagine it's something like breaking in a wild horse. There are different ways of doing it. I prefer a gentle way.

To avoid monkey mind you need set up goals and work to reach them. If it's to perform on a occasion then it's important to be as prepared as possible and always see the best outcome. Really imagine it with all senses. See yourself where you want to be. Then when the moment comes. Be there.

Tomorrow is my first 5 o clock (YES IN THE MORNING!) shift of three in a row. Bingo?
Determined to do it and do it well!
How to prepare?
- Pack the day before
- Sleep well
- Cleansing lemon water and morning yoga
- Cold shower, bring breakfast to work (no biking while digesting)
- Bicycle meditation
- Be on time. Do your best. Always.
DO WHAT YOU DO WHEN YOU DO IT

Already set up goals for work... and the yoga? Next time, Inspector Yogi... Next time.